Day 1 Self-Forgiveness

It took me 2 days to get my blog together to 'Look' the way I wanted it to and within this I see that I was stalling so that I did not have to make the commitment to myself to no longer accept and allow limitation within and as me.  I also realise that I have used this point as an excuse as a back-door and justification so that I would not have to get on with physically writing self-forgiveness and correcting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to postpone writing in my blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make excuses for myself as to why it was impossible for me to write my blog on day 1 with the group

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my expression and judge myself as a failure before I even start

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear self-commitment 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into thoughts feelings and emotions and allow myself to accept the automated system robot reaction that is the resistance to change 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to the mind through accepting that I am less than resistance and that I am unable to move because the resistance is so strong

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to immediately look for an excuse for not being able to apply and commit to myself daily through writhing self forgiveness, self corrective statements and correcting myself effectively

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the excuse that I work too much to write daily

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to the idea that I am limited 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give more value to survival than to supporting self so that I may become a pillar that stand here stable as support for all those that are unable to hear the message or unable to speak because their voices are not heard

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to ego through allowing myself to exist in separation from what is here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give myself the choice to fuck around and not apply myself effectively 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare my writing expression to the writing expression of others and deem mine as inferior

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a reaction to the name I chose for my blog because I allowed the feeling of not being effective enough at writing to hold such a title "writing" My Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within an idea of myself as inferior through participating in thoughts primarily thoughts of limitation and fear

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in fear of the horror that I have accepted and allowed to exist within me and without as this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my self responsibility so that I will not have to face every single point I have created in self dishonesty and separation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see process as to big for me to keep up with because I am not as intelligent as others that are participating in process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the idea that I am stupid and that I am a failure and that I am currently living the consequence of fucking around in school and not being  responsible 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist and limit myself to and as a memory

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use this point as a back up excuse to exit the back door I have left wide open for myself to escape out of to escape from the consequence I have created for myself so that I will not have to take self responsibility because after all no body else is doing it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the status quo of: live for today, do what you want, have fun, live fast, life is an experience take joy in it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself so much so that I have accepted myself as less than life

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to diminish to the point where I do not even want to stand up for myself as life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that its too late and too hard and too much and just too everything so that in my mind I can justify why I am not able to do it when in fact I am here, I have a human physical body, I have the tools

I am able to walk this process of taking self responsibility moment by moment breath by breath within and as simplicity here I will myself to do this I do not allow myself to fall into a self made trap of disillusionment.

I no longer accept or allow the excuse that walking and writing is overwhelming and if a thought comes up I stop, I breath, and correct myself in the moment to not participate in the mind or give attention to the mind of back-chat that only I can create I take responsibility for myself and for my the back-chat I have created and I  forgive myself for the thought delete the thought and breath in self forgiveness and breath out self honesty

 Here I remain