Day 36: Fear Possession

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and control another person

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to direct and control my actions, words and deeds

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine the worse case senario

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to decide that it is a mans responsibiltiy to keep me out of harms way and forsee any possible problems before they develop

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get mad at the person in my world that is male because I blame him for not being manly enough to take care of me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge another person as not manly because he didn't make sure there was plenty of gasoline in the car

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project my own fear onto another in the form of anger and judgement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my responsibility out there separate from me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form ideas based on traditions, culture, and opinions onto this man

I forgive myself that I did not allow or accept myself to breath and bring myself back here and stabilize myself so that I could practically support myself to respond in a clear rational way

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowedmyself to consider what another person is saying in terms of support while I am in an emotional possession and react by saying thats not true or listen and then give some justification why what they are saying is bullshit and why I am right

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to humble myself in moments when someone is offering practical support

Day 35: Panic

 

I forgive myself that I have acccepted and allowed myself to react in fear when I think I might run out of gas

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to raise my voice and become bossy when I go into a fear reaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control others and my surroundings thus not seeing realizing or understanding that I want to control because I am out of control when I am possessed by fear


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak in harsh manner to others when I go into fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being stuck in traffic miles long and run out of gas

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I might get hit by someone driving by if I had to pull over

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to envision myself walking for miles until my shoes tore due to looking for a gas station and then having to walk back with only one gallon of gas and hoping that that one gallon would be enough to get back to a gas station

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame another that the car did not have gas

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make making sure that we have gas our responsibility not just the person driving

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that men should always be the ones to keep a women safe from running out of gas when they are the one driving a car

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider the situation we were in and what caused the confusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react energetically to having to pick someone up from a place quickly without notice and panic and worry we would not get there on time and the person waiting would be in a terrible situation if we did not move fast

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into my mind rather than remain here considering all the points required to pick someone up eg. gas, directions etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to panic 

to be continued...

Day 34: Dogs and Cats

I have not talked much about the equal money system in this particular blog but I strongly support an equal money system for all, so that all here on earth can live a life of dignity.

Within an equal money system there will be so many changes and one of these changes will be how animals are supported and just one example is medicine for animals right now medicine is only made with one goal in mind and that goal is profit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in a world where animals are not supported as equals

I forgive myself myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react in fear with regards to being able to support dogs and cats effectively because specific research has not been done in terms of supporting animals physical bodies

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world where profit reigns above life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a system of inequality to control all as slaves to a system of abuse and separation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my animals becoming ill and not being able to support them effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that a proper amount of research has not been done to support animals effectively

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned that I may hurt them because I might give them something that harms them while trying to protect them

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed system of distrust and self-dishonesty to reign above life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think at points in my life that animals are inferior to human beings

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to properly forgive myself for this point

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that animals were inferior to humans

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize or understand that I am not here to teach animals anything or treat them as inferior but to learn from them

to be continued...

Day 33: Baby Steps

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I don't know how to make effective self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake when writing out self-correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake when walking self-corrective application

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a decision to support myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist walking self-correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist what I perceive to be a challange

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that correcting myself is a challenge

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use fear to hide that I don't want to change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like biting my nails because I know I use it as a way to suppress myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist facing self as this reality and this world

I commit to no longer accept or allow myself to resist writing out self-corrective statements

I commit to breath and be here aware of myself as breath

I commit to no longer give my power away to self-judgement

I commit myself to no longer accept or allow myself to give my power away to energy positive\negative manifestations

I commit to support myself if I make a mistake

I commit to support myself through writing and practicing self-correction, self-direction, self-movement, self-confidence and self-honesty here

I commit myself to face myself in moments that I would normally resist facing myself through nail biting, taking pills to relieve pain, eat, pop my fingers, pick at my face, rub my eyes, yawning, surf the web or make bogus excuses

I commit myself to investigate what I have accepted and allowed in self-dishonesty and separation and correct myself through writing, self-forgiveness, self-corrective statements and self-corrective action

I commit myself to practice supporting myself even if I experience resistance, I see, realize and understand that resistance is the way to self-realization and I will not allow myself to stop just because I have a thought, reaction, feeling or emotion

I see realize and understand that to participate in thoughts, feelings or emotions is give my power away and I will not allow or accept anything less than who I am here

I support myself to continue walking my journey to nothingness without hesitation

I commit to peeling the layers of onion that is me to reveal the core of myself to return to nothingness
 
I see realize and understand that accepting these actions is not self-support but self-suppression and I do not accept or allow this in myself or my world

til here no further

I allow myself to make mistakes

I embrace humility as myself here

I correct myself here

Day 32: Self-Responsibility

I did it again, I started to write and I just ended up deleting and writing and deleting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop thinking while writing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to post-pone self-correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear I will fail myself if I write out self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I will fail to follow through with my commitments in reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and give my power away to thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist self-correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist change

I forgive myself that have accepted and allowed myself post-pone writing and distract myself by surfing the web

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious when I think about writing self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about writing self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the excuse that I fear writing self-corrective statements

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear self-sabotage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself by fearing it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I won't be specific enough

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to consider that I must practice specificity until I can live it in fact equal and one as myself here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear changing me for real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing the old me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold onto memories and characters that I have defined and limited myself by so that I don't have to be self-responsible for my actions or this world as me here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define responsibility as negative, bad, wrong

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have also defined responsibility as positive, good rightous

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to exist as and define self-responsibility within and as a polarity manifestation

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allow myself to see realize and understand that I will not be able to live self-responsibility until I have redefined this word for myself equal and one

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word self-responsibility 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that what I have done is unacceptable therefore I should be punished

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize and understand that wanting to be punished is abdication of self-responsibility 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this as an excuse to remain on the fence about who I will be and what I will and won't allow in myself and the world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed that I have allowed myself to diminish to a selfish individual that only cares about myself

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to remain humble

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself

To Be Continued...

Day 31: Nail Biting

I bit my nails so much yesterday that they still hurt today and will probably hurt tomorrow it was mostly my left hand and especially my pointer finger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails to avoid what is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails to avoid self-intimacy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for biting my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself bite my nails until it hurts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hurt my body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails so short that it hurts so that I have another point to focus on as a distraction

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hurt my body and then talk about it as a way to make conversation and not support myself just whine about it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails for attention

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a nail biter

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am addicted to biting my nails and am unable to stop

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stop biting my nails because I like it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get energy from nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the energy of nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impulsively bite my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress irritation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress anger

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress judgement

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress self-expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress disgust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress emotions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress thoughts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress self-blame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress blame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress speaking in a moment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to hide from myself and others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others by nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my human physical body by nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in energy while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get my fix of energy through nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to alienate myself through and by nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress and isolate myself when nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think while nail biting and not present here equal and one within and as breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to obsessively bite my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails and worry at the same time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress anxiety while biting my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress self-doubt while biting my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails as an automated response rather than supporting myself to correct myself here in a moment

I forgive myself that I have  accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I feel insecure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to further suppress suppressions when biting my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed of myself for nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to like biting my nails because I think it feels good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I go into a fear reaction of worry about survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I panic

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the consequences of nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I go into a fear reaction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I fear what others might think about me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am in control while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am out of control while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in polarity manifestations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress guilt while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress shame while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress regret while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails and judge my human physical body at the same time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think I am fat, gross and disgusting while biting my nails

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I am faced with a decision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to escape into my mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting as a back-door

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use nail biting to suppress nervousness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I feel insecure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress sadness while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility while nail biting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to bite my nails when I think about eating

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chew/eat at myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that something is eating at me and that something is me not directing myself to face myself in every moment


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unaware of my human physical body while nail biting

To Be Continued...

Day 30: Peeing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put off using the restroom by holding it for hours because I think that its too much of a hassel to get up and go to the restroom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest pain my lower stomach from holding my pee

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist drinking an efficient amount of water to remain hydrated because I don't like using the restroom because I've accepted and allowed myself to become lazy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think, believe and perceive that I don't like using the restroom

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lazy which indicates I'm in my mind not here present within and as my human physical body able to simply do what's necessary to be done in a single moment to support myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold my pee in because I thought I would miss out on sleep

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give into thoughts and disregard my human physical body

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give a greater value to sleep than peeing and choose sleep over peeing which indicates I was not actually resting but in my mind thinking

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to support my human physical body and decide that I have a choice whether or not I will or won't support my body 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the natural functions of my human physical body

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see realize or understand that my body is supporting me by expelling waste

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold in waste that does not serve my body because I listened to thoughts and gave them authority and abused my body because of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse my human physical body

To be continued...